A Surprise

"What an unexpected surprise!"
"What other kind is there?"
-Urinetown

There is now such thing as an expected surprise.
-Me

Lover's Eyes

Nothing in my life is more accurate than this right now.

"Setting my course for adventure, but my mind is not on any romance"

Current Song Obsessions

"Anna Sun" by Walk the Moon
"Blue Hawai'i" by Elvis Presley
"Can't Help Falling in Love" by Elvis Presley
"Just Wanna Be With You" from High School Musical 3
"More than the World" by Mindy Gledhill
"Needing/Getting" by OK Go
"Peace in the Valley" by Elvis Presley
"Reminder" by Mumford & Sons
"Skyscraper" by Demi Lovato
"Zing! Went the Strings of My Heart" by Judy Garland

Meaning

So life has more meaning than it did last week,
(I can't say life's meaning just didn't exist last week, because life always has meaning, I'm not depressed.)
Yesterday, cross country started, driver's ed started, I babysat for the first time in FOREVER, it was Judy Garland's birthday, and I got to see Urinetown with my aunt and cousins.
I'm really mad that I just started cross country this year. I wish I would've started sooner, and I was going to start last year, but my toe broke... so XC was a nada.

I wish I could make this blog deep and stuff, but deep isn't really my thing.

A List of Reasons

I'm starting a list of reasons of why I'm not a weenie.
But so far, I've only got two, and they both involve hiking

1. I hiked up the front of Squaw
This means not up the traditional through Rock Canyon way, and I had taken an allergy pill on an empty stomach which = no bueno. And I did it with some super pro-hiking young men from my ward... so I'm pretty proud of myself!
2. I hiked 3 miles on a broken toe
Oh the things you do at Girl's Camp for certification...

Feeling

I have a feeling I don't know how to describe... my family always says "There's probably a German word for that" and ya know... maybe there is? Good thing I know so much German (yeah... hahaha nein.) So let's try describing this feeling in a few words, shall we?

I feel lonely
Do you want a list of people gone from my life right now?
1. my brother (at Camp Big Springs)
2. Kari (in Hawaii)
3. Abby and Paige (in San Diego)
4. Emma (in New York)
5. Clarissa (in Germany)
and the young men (including my dad) go on a campout next week. If one more person leaves... I think I'll scream. And die. But whatever... I'm taking all this in stride. One day at a time, and slowly, people will come back!

The chorus of "Quiet" by Demi Lovato describes this feeling (even though the song is supposed to be about a boy)

It's much too quiet in here 
I want to disappear 

I'm hearing myself thinking too clear 

It's too quiet in here 

Make it all go away 

Why can't we break this silence 

Finally 

I feel angsty (is that the right word?)

I'm very worried this summer will be a total flop... but I think if I can last til everyone gets back, summer will start to pick up. Last year there was girl's camp the first week of June to start everything out and get the summery juices flowing, but this year there's been nada. Not even one night of night games... geez. NOT EVEN ONE NIGHT OF NIGHT GAMES. That is so odd.
I feel reminiscent
I've been reading a lot of old journals lately, and thinking about the past, but you know what they say, don't dwell on the past! And also, the future. That little thing is rough. I'm getting less afraid of it though, in 8th grade I was so afraid of getting to be 16 and dates and dances and driving and all that stuff, but I'm getting through it all one day at a time. Living in the present is just so hard. I just gotta YOLO it.

So I guess the moral of this frozen time period is... One day at a time.
And I had something else to say, but now I can't remember, so maybe it'll come to me later and I'll be able to update this post, if not, this is it!